
My therapist told me something meaningful yesterday. She said, “It’s important to remember that when you’re depressed, you have to nurse yourself and be extra gentle towards yourself. Just like an athlete wouldn’t break an ankle then force themselves to run on that ankle. They rest as it heals and do not think ‘I am a failed athlete.’ They think, ‘Right now, something isn’t working, so I’ll take care of myself until it does.’”
Just like a broken bone, depression can change the way your daily life plays out, and pushing yourself too hard and getting frustrated when you don’t feel better is just like trying to run on that broken ankle and getting frustrated when it doesn’t heal.
| Me: | *Thinks about dying* |
| Me: | *Panics* |
| Me: | *Thinks about living* |
| Me: | *Panics* |
| Me: | ????????????????????? |
Today I met a woman, whose age she did not mention because she is a lady, was buying a lot of Star Wars merch because we had it on sale. And she was telling me that she couldn’t wait to see the new one and how she was going to stay up and see the midnight release and take pictures of people in costumes. She was so excited, and then she leans in close:
“You know, all these young men at these conventions- they see me and they ask me trivia about this that and the other thing and I tell them- ‘Son, I went to see the first one in 1977 before you were even a twinkle in your daddy’s eye.’ If I don’t know the answer, its because I damn forgot.”